If I Never Knew You Letter #10

Erza K. and Kid
42-42-564
Death City, Japan

Finnian

S-01-22-008

Phantomhive Manor

London, England

Dear Finni,

We're coming to England! Me and Kid that is. I can't believe it's been 10 years since we've seen each other. Okay, so that's an exaggeration. But still, 10 years since we all graduated High School. 6 since we've seen each other. I was so happy to hear you've settled in England. I hope it's been treating you well. Kid is off doing something, or else I'd make him sit down and write with me.

I don't think you ever knew L and I were dating, let alone he proposed. You wouldn't have even heard that he died 3 years ago. We got married a few days before he died. It was just us and the judge. I even have a 2 year old named Abigail. She loves Kid and even calls him "Uncle Kid."

We've been living in Death City ever since L's death. Abigail was born here and Kid let's me teach. I'm teaching math, of course. The kids groan a lot, but they'll thank me when some mystical creature asked how to find the circumference of a circle. 

We're excited to see you again and hope everything is good.

Your friends, 

                    Erza Kirkland and Death the Kid

I almost forgot! I wrote you a poem! I'll write it on the back. 

10 years ago

We graduate.

Now I know

Life is fake.

Hello again!

Goodbye past.

Say, my friend

Can you last?

This troubled life

And waters roll

Through all strife,

We've one great goal.

Some say, "Survival is all."

But somehow, we've stayed tall.

If I Never Knew You Letter #9

Erza Kirkland
60-42-015
Japan

Death the Kid

42-42-564

Death City, Japan

Dear Kid,

He's dead. Kira killed him. I don't know what to do. I"m going to come see you. You always know how to make things better. I just don't know what to do.

No, no, no.

It can't be true.

It can't be real.

I can't lose you.

I cannot face

This life alone.

Take my hand.

Take me home.

No, no, no

It can't be true.

It can't be real.

I can't lose you.

This life I've found

Is lost again.

Now so am I.

My world's at end.

I can't believe

You'd go away,

And leave me here

To face the day.

No, no, no.

It can't be true.

It can't be real.

I can't lose you.

Now life is over.

My pain's complete.

Just let me go,

So we can meet.

No! No! No!

It won't be true!

It won't be real!

I won't lose you,

Or I won't heal.

No, I won't heal.

I'm so lost Kid. You've known me for so long. You know how much this hurts me. I'm getting on a train to come see you as soon as I mail this. You'll probably get this before I arrive, because I have to find Kiku and get him to take me to Death city. I know you can help me Kid and heaven knows I need it.

Erza

If I Never Knew You Letter #8

Death the Kid
42-42-564
Death City, Japan

Erza Kirkland

60-42-015

Japan

Dear Erza,

I wish you'd be more cheerful.

This gloomy nature isn't like you.

You know I think Kira is full of bull.

To kill L, he has to act true.

These worries you have

Are very real, my friend.

But I do wish you'd laugh

And forget about an imagined end.

It seems the world com's to a close

But I promise life goes on.

We both know that path you choose

Is truly where you forever belong.

I wish you the best

Because you deserve it.

I know it's not eloquent but it describes how I reacted to your last letter. I am so excited for you. I hope to be invited, but I understand if you can't. Things have been good here but Kira's threat still reaches to us even. Several misters have died because of heart attacks and the weapons are scared they're next. I don't know what to do. I'm considering shutting the city down. but that'll only cause more panic. Right now I am organizing a group to find Kira. He may not be eatin ghuman souls, but he's more or less kishan in spirit. I hope to see you soon.

Your friend,

                 Death the Kid

If I Never Knew You Letter #7

Erza Kirkland
60-42-015
Japan

Death the Kid

42-42-564

Death City, Japan

Dear Kid,

You won't believe what's happened! Well, actually, you probably will, but anyway. L proposed! We're currently back in Japan. L is working on a case here. He wants me to stay with you for my safety, but that's stupid. He always remains perfect secrecy. Just in case you haven't heard, there's a person killing criminals with a heart attack. They're calling him Kira. L has deduced that he needs a name and a face to kill. but enough about him. 

Me and L are going to have a simple wedding. Without a date or flowers. It's just going to be spontaneous. I'll try and let you know. After all, I need my man of honor. But I hope you understand why it might not happy. My parents aren't even invited. I called and told them about it, but they weren't too happy. I am a grown woman though and they have to accept my decision. They do love L though and trust him with me.

L is afraid to dying on this case. I know he won't want to get married if he's going to die. But you know me. I'll insist on getting married. I don't live with "what-ifs" every well. On the other hand, I don't want to be a widow. But you can't have it all. I'll just enjoy every minute we get together. I wrote a poem that sums up my feelings very well. I don't have room here, but I'll put it on the back.

His voice calls to me,

The shadows flee.

I cannot live

Without him.

I don't know

How I did before.

But I know

I can't again.

If he dies,

Lay me by him

And let this be my tribute.

That the girl who loved

Died by the same power.

Your friend forever,

                             Erza Kirkland

If I Never Knew You Letter #6

To: Lawliet
From: Erza

I know you love me
And I believe
We can be
Together forever
As one being

On Earth being

Alive, I know

Things forever.

You and me

Are meant to be

This I believe.

If we believe

No being

Cannot be

In the know.

You and me

Can live forever.

Forever

To believe

In me

And being

In the know.

To be

Or not to be.

We need forever

To know

And believe

In our being.

I need me.

With only me,

I know "be"

Is my being.

Ever and forever.

Wish to believe

And know.

Being me

I know to be

Together forever is believe.

Lawliet, Lawliet, Lawliet! I'll use your real name every chance I get. I couldn't sleep, so I wrote this. Even now you're sitting next to me on your computer. Hopefully you'll find this before we leave. I love you so much. I don't haave much left to say, because you're right next to me. Know I love you forever.

~Erza

If I Never Knew You Letter #5

L
11-52-004
Japan

Erza Kirkland and Death the Kid

42-42-564

Death City, Japan

Dear Erza and begrudgingly Kid,

I’m sorry I couldn’t make it to the airport. I got lost. Please don’t tell anyone else that I have a horrible sense of direction. I’ll meet you in Death City in a few days. Watari and Kiku will make sure I  get there.

To Kid: Yes, I did deduce your letter to me. I’ve decided that you are a normally silent young man who becomes uncontrollable when when those you love are threatened. Fear not, I have no intention of hurting your precious cousin.

To Erza: I very much enjoyed the poem you sent me and have decided to sent my own. I’ll add it at the end. You know I love you, but my reasoning has deduced that if I don’t tell you, your love for me will decrease by approximately 10%. So, I love you my darling Erza. At this point, I would add some fluffy compliments, but this is not a private letter. Therefore, I will save those for when we see each other.

With that, I bid you both farewell. Hopefully you will see me before you see this letter, but in the chance you don’t, know I will be arriving soon.

Beauty illuminates your face.

Seeing each other is a gift.

What keeps us apart is always a case.

I know you have bought something lace.

When I see you, your eyes will lift.

Beauty illuminates your face.

We both work at constant pace.

Sometimes we are miffed.

For what keeps us apart is always a case.

To your side, I now race.

Hurry, to seal the rift.

As beauty illuminates your face.

To your love, I make haste.

But always parted by the cliff.

Of what keeps us apart, always a case.

How I wish to take a mace

And as a knight, cause the shift.

Of beauty illuminating your face.

But what keeps us apart is always a case.

If I Never Knew You Letter #4

Death the Kid
42-42-564
Death City, Japan

L

11-52-004

Japan

Dear L,

I can't believe you're back in Japan. Please fell free to come to Death City. I would like to see you again. Erza talks so much about you. Sometimes I wonder if you're the guy she is dating. But then she tells me how romantic he is and I can't suspect you. You're too straight forward for that. Besides, we're meeting him at the airport. But then again, she has been calling him John Doe. Let me tell you something L, if you break her heart I will f***ing break your f***ing face. Don't play your sh**y games with her either. She may be naive, but she doesn't sit around for that s**t. By the way:

Careless

1. The feelings that make love.

2. How could you, of all people, do that?

3. The choices that she's made.

4. The reasons you won.

5. The way you act.

I guess you could call this letter a threat, no. Do that. Call it a threat and deduce my words the way you always do. Don't try and us decoys with me either. I've felt your soul resonance and I know how to find you. Yes L, you can run, but you can never hide.

I can't wait to see you at the airport on Thursday and I'm sure you'll get this before then. Until Thursday.

-Death the Kid

If I Never Knew You Letter #3

Erza Kirkland
60-42-015
Siberia, Russia

John Doe

11-52-004

Wammy's House, England

My dearest John,

How I wish you'd let me use your name! I hate loving you secretly. I know we've been texting and calling, but I just had to write at least once. I miss you terribly. All the boys have treated my like perfect gentlemen. Feli was the only one who flirted even a little and I'm sure he didn't mean it. I wrote a poem just for you!

The snow flutters to the ground.

I can't help but think of you.

I hear your voice all around.

And in my heart, I know you're true.

I can't help but think of you.

You visit me in dreams at night.

And in my heart, I know you're true.

But then you're gone in morning light.

You visit me in dreams at night.

I heard your voice all around.

But then you're gone in morning light.

When the snow flutters to the ground.

Proof that I am thinking of you. I wrote Kid about you. I hope he approves. I know you think it's silly, but he's my best friend and 4th cousin. His opinion matters as much as my parents. In a few days I'll see him and you again. My two important men. I'll let you solve your puzzles now. 

XOXO Love,

                    Erza Kirkland

If I Never Knew You Letter #2

Death the Kid
42-42-564
Death City, Japan

Erza Kirkland

60-42-015

Siberia, Russia

Dear Erza,

I'm glad to hear you're doing good. I can't wait to see you as well. You know I've never been one for writing on paper, or writing in general. Has it really been 3 years since we've last seen each other?

Not much has happened here. Liz and Patty keep me somewhat sane. Make and Soul are officially dating now. took them long enough. Black Star is still annoying, though Tsubaki has mellowed him a little bit. Just a little, like a grain of sand. The little d**k.

I've been taking really good pictures lately. I have to tell you about this waterfall I found. There was a blanket of moss on the rocks sleeping next to it and the water swayed like drying blankets in a crisp summer wind. I closed my eyes to make sure I wasn't dreaming. When I opened my eyes, the blanket of water continued to flow in a soft symphony sound. It was like the gently flow of an oboe and not the raucous blast of a trumpet. I sat down and almost didn't want to nap a picture and invade the peace. But I snapped it anyway and now I have a picture worth a million words.

I can't wait to show you around. Kiku's been in thought with me as well, so I'll be with him at the airport when you come. John sounds like a wonderful guy, but I can't be sure until I meet him. As long as he doesn't hit my shoulders. I'll see you in the next few weeks, but for now I have to deal with some keshan. 

Your friend,

                   Death the Kid

If I Never Knew You Letter #1

Erza Kirkland
60-42-015
Siberia, Russia

Death the Kid

42-42-564

Death City, Japan

Dear Death the Kid,

Darkness falls in the city.

Darkness falls in the city.

Light illuminates my thoughts.

Light illuminates my thoughts.

My thoughts falls in darkness.

The city illuminates light.

Please don't leave me.

Please don't leave me.

I never wanted to be abandoned.

I never wanted to be abandoned.

To be never wanted me.

Please. I don't leave abandoned.

Words fly across the page.

Words fly across the page.

I think I'm going crazy.

I think I'm going crazy.

Going crazy, I think I'm across.

The page fly words.

Thoughts fly across crazy.

Words illuminates my abandoned darkness.

Please falls going in the city.

Don't I never think I'm me?

I wanted to be the page.

Light. Leave.

It's called a paredell. I wrote it thinking of you. Please excuse my imperfect writing. I'm trying my best. Now, onto my letter. I've been travelling this summer. Arthur met me in England and Francis took me through France. Then Antonio showed me Spain. Lovino picked me up and we took a short boat ride to Italy. I got seasick and Lovi cussed at the captain. Feliciano was thrilled when we landed. After I stopped wanted to throw up, we had pasta. Lots and LOTS of pasta. all the countries had to show me around. It was an interesting way to tour Europe. I'm in Russia with Ivan now. He gave me a bouquet of sunflowers. They're beautiful. I'm on the Trans-Siberian Railroad train right now. I'll be in Japan in two weeks. Kiku's metting me at the airport and taking me straight to Death city. I can't wait to see you again. Has it really been 7 years since high school and 3 since we last saw each other face to face? I be you haven't changed at all. It's sad we won't be able to spend much time together, but it's all precious. I almost don't want to go back to work.

John is meeting me at the airport as well. You'll get to meet him face to face. I hope you approve. You know how important it is for me that you do. I've already told you all about him, but he's so adorable and sweet! Just like his cake he always eats.

I hope everything is well in Death City. Until I see you next Kid!

Your friend forever,

Erza Kirkland                                                                              

If I Never Knew You

June 6, 2072

These letters are what remains of the correspondence between my mother, her best friends, and my father between the years 2022-2025. Mom gathered and saved them carefully in her last years. She died May 14, 2072.

Let's Talk Chat Rooms

I guess I'm actually going to try and blog and we'll see who actually cares, but as a Senior in High School graduating in two weeks, my life is very interesting. We'll start with something that happened recently.

About a week ago, due to mere boredom, I decided to enter a chat room. It was the worst decision of my life! Not only was everyone only looking for sex/sexting they all acted incredibly stupid. And as soon as I logged on as a young female, I didn't give my real age, all the supposedly male users were on me like...like...a moth on a light. But not as graceful. More like a bunch of sea lions coming out of the sea. It was embarrassing for the male population. These "men" (because you can never be sure on the internet. I am not criticizing their manhood based on their actions) are the reason men have a bad reputation in our society.

The one "man" (see previous quotation marks note) that was decent that spoke with me was actually a delight. He used proper grammar, capitalization, punctuation, and made no attempted to ask me about my relationship status or location. We actually had a very decent conversation until I decided I wanted to go to sleep.

Okay, so what I'm trying to say is that you really should listen when people tell you not to go onto chat rooms. Because you really don't know what's going on and who's there. Unless you make a private chat room only for you and your friends, but with text nowadays you don't really need that. Also, chat rooms are capable of destroying your sanity. So. Many. Idiots. And they're all obsessed with sex. Unless you're into that kind of stuff, in which case my blog is probably not for you, do not enter a public chat room! Let me repeat. DO. NOT. ENTER A PUBLIC CHAT ROOM! If you're anything like me, you will regret it. But on the other hand, if you're anything like me, you now need to see what I'm talking about. If this is the case, please. Please! Do not use your real name or anything that could be used to trace you. Also, enter your age as something not your real age. So teens, because I'm guessing that's my audience, should enter their age as something in the 20's. \

Please be careful out there on the interwebs guys!

E.K. out!