Random 'Ritin' with Erza Kirkland
Poetry, satire, fanfiction, flash, rants, and just random tidbits for you my dear readers. If you've read any of my work anywhere else, you know that I can be fairly random hence the appropriate name "Random 'Ritin' with Erza Kirkland."
Wednesday, August 5, 2015
Stop Making Me Love You
How's it going today? he asks.
Pretty good. What about you? How's work? I respond.
Uh, same old. How's the game going? he wonders.
Good. How do I beat this boss though? I ask in frustration. I can almost hear his smile as he explains it to me through the text message. I love him so much, but I can't tell him. No, I have to wait until I see him in person. I'll do it. I'll do it.
The conversation ends and I clutch my phone thinking about him. Every single night. Every single d**n night. He loves me, he loves me not. I scream internally. Why is this so hard?!? Why does he do this to me? I turn off my lamp and curl up in my sheets. Slowly, my mind begins to lose the battle against sleep and turns off. I love him. I love him.
Suddenly, he's here with me, though I know he's not really. He holds me close and I intertwine our fingers when our hands meet. I rest my head against his chest and let his heartbeat soothe me to sleep.
"I love you," I whisper, but I'm asleep before I can hear his imaginary response.
Friday, June 12, 2015
"Strong Independent Woman"
Tuesday, June 2, 2015
Fake
We live in a fake world.
Behind fake smiles and
"I'm doing good."
We play a game daily.
It's called,
"How long can I hide emotions?"
But I'm tired of hiding.
I'm tired of telling people,
"I'm doing ok."
Because it's a lie.
I want to say,
"I'm not good.
I'm not even okay."
I'm anxious and depressed.
The LGBT community is supressed.
My best friend can't be a girl,
Because she was born a boy.
My brother is disabled
By no fault of anyone.
I can't pay for school
Because it's college.
I'm lost in a big world.
I'm tired of pretending.
I don't want to grow up,
But that'd only be an ending.
How much longer must we hide?
Behind our fake smiles
There is hurt.
But don't show it!
If you show it you've lost.
Go straight to jail.
Do not pass go.
Do not collet $200.
We live in a fake world.
A world of game pieces
And dice.
But we are not rolling
For our fate.
And the winner
Takes it all.
Sunday, May 31, 2015
If I Never Knew You Letter #10
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If I Never Knew You Letter #9
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If I Never Knew You Letter #8
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If I Never Knew You Letter #7
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