Lovefallen

She texted me immediately.

“I promise.”

Were the words she cried.

I didn't do it, I didn't try

To take him from your side.”

My heart has dropped,

A dose I needed.

Of cold hard reality.

She says the words,

But doesn't mean

What I realize.

He’s not thinking of me.

I am not in his thoughts.

He’s my white knight,

But am I his princess?

The thoughts engulf me,

And I’m sad.

“It’s not their fault,

I tell myself.

“No one to blame but me.

I let him in and take control

And now I pay the price.”

I hope of better days to come.

Maybe he’s waiting for Prom.

But the thoughts still follow,

“Was I wrong?”

I keep this all inside myself,

Never let him see.

The feelings that I wish

He knew deep inside of me.

I cannot blame him,

Depression lies.

I know I am enough.

But still I fight

And work and try

To be noticed in this world.

“Time to let it go.”

I tell myself.

“You aren't going to die.

You still have friends

That love you so.”

I know! I know! I cry.

But can I heal

This open void

Deep inside my soul?

I know I will,

But for now

It’s time to let it go.