She texted me immediately.
“I promise.”
Were the words she cried.
I didn't do it, I didn't try
To take him from your side.”
My heart has dropped,
A dose I needed.
Of cold hard reality.
She says the words,
But doesn't mean
What I realize.
He’s not thinking of me.
I am not in his thoughts.
He’s my white knight,
But am I his princess?
The thoughts engulf me,
And I’m sad.
“It’s not their fault,
I tell myself.
“No one to blame but me.
I let him in and take control
And now I pay the price.”
I hope of better days to come.
Maybe he’s waiting for Prom.
But the thoughts still follow,
“Was I wrong?”
I keep this all inside myself,
Never let him see.
The feelings that I wish
He knew deep inside of me.
I cannot blame him,
Depression lies.
I know I am enough.
But still I fight
And work and try
To be noticed in this world.
“Time to let it go.”
I tell myself.
“You aren't going to die.
You still have friends
That love you so.”
I know! I know! I cry.
But can I heal
This open void
Deep inside my soul?
I know I will,
But for now
It’s time to let it go.
